I have a fever and am absolutely exhausted from a seemingly never-ending flu. In between all this, I’m still working and my bootlicker manager has just given me a performance review at “performing” level. I set myself as “strong” – one level higher. Not that it matters because these reviews are so pointless. However if you’re only just “performing”, (i.e: doing the job you were hired to do), you can forget any salary increase or bonuses). Apparently the countless extra (and unpaid) hours I pulled last year and all the additional tasks outside of my remit I did at her request to cover her ass when she was sinking because of her own ineptitude wasn’t quite enough.
The justification for dropping my rating was that her manager did the same on her review so she’s following the same protocol for me…?
What’s hilarious about this is the fact that she is renowned for being lazy af by our colleagues and it is also known how much work she fobs off to me.
To add insult to injury, she’s told me I need to “self promote” more and get “more recognition” before I can be considered “strong” at my role, let alone “exceptional”. She said she wants me to start speaking on our regional calls where 100+ members of staff join; this is something she brought up before and I have said I don’t feel comfortable doing.
I’m an introvert so the idea of this really fucks me up but more relevant perhaps is the fact that I don’t have anything remotely important enough to try and push on those calls.
She almost seems to find it funny that I don’t want to speak on them and for some reason, brings it up every few months as though it’s a target to achieve?
She tells me I’m fantastic constantly and how she couldn’t be without me all the time which for the first few months, I thought was very nice of her. I have actually started to realise how manipulative it is.
I realise that this performance review is a great way to halt any potential
salary bumps/bonuses and that’s fine. If I’m only going to be considered as just meeting expectations, despite running myself into the ground week after week, I will definitely be easing up a hell of a lot this year. Starting with logging off right now and having a nap.