I’ve had this job about a year, it’s my first full time corporate job and I hated it ever since I got hired to be honest. But I was still grateful for the opportunity, I can’t complain about the work environment because I appreciate how my boss has structured a flexible and understanding work/life balance – however it’s just the actual work that I find draining and pointless. For the past 6ish months I’ve been applying to jobs and toying with the idea of just quitting, until this week I finally told my boss that I don’t think I’m a good fit for the role and that it doesn’t align with my career goals anymore so I’ll be working until they find my replacement – which will probably take around 2-3 more weeks.
I also have a freelancing job that I’ve been doing on the weekends alongside the office job, which honestly contributed to my burnout because essentially I’m working 7 days a week. I feel like I have no time to do things like cook meals or do laundry. But if I had to choose my duties for the office or my freelancing, I enjoy my freelancing role exponentially more. I also looked at the gigs I have secured for the coming months, and I should be good financially until the end of the year, even though there will still be an obvious loss in income without the office job. I also figured if I really start to struggle with finances, I’ll suck it up and take on a part time retail job. Before actually having the conversation with my boss, I was confident and full of hope that I was doing the right thing.
But now that I’ve actually done it, terror has started to set in. I feel like I just made the dumbest decision ever, giving up a stable income in a non-toxic work environment with nothing else lined up. Even though I keep telling myself that I have my finances mapped out for the foreseeable future because of my freelancing, I’m scared that I’ve just willingly thrown my whole life away. Guess I don’t really know my goal in posting here… feel free to agree with how dumb I am in the comments.