I haven’t worked for 6 years following the birth of my son. Before that, I was in a job for 10 years which was very stressful but I had great relations with my team which helped.
I wasn’t looking for a job, but saw this one advertised and it sounded extremely interesting. Interviewed and got it. I then got very ill and had to move my start date back by 2 months.
I’ve now been in the position for just under 1 month. I knew immediately that I’d made a mistake, the job is nothing like I expected, all the interesting bits are done by other roles. My team are all quite unsociable which is especially frustrating as there are usually around 3hrs of the working day where there is nothing to do.
I am only on a 6 month temporary contract and I planned to just work it out till then and leave BUT, I have since discovered that I am pregnant. This follows 3 back to back miscarriages so although I’m not ‘excited’ – it has added to my anxieties. I had to take a day off sick last week and the response I got from work was quite obviously annoyed. I have some health problems so the reality is, further miscarriage or not, I will likely have problems cropping up.
A friend of mine has offered me a working from home job for more money and I interview in a couple of weeks. I don’t feel that I can stay where I am any longer, it’s ruining every weekend with the thought of going back in, I feel very unwelcome and something of a ‘nuisance’ at work and obviously I’m also constantly now expecting to miscarry at any moment and the thought of that happening at work is terrifying.
So, sorry for the long story, I’ve decided to hand in my notice on Monday. But I’m really scared everyone will make me feel uncomfortable and I feel guilty for them taking a chance on me in the first place. Any advice for Monday?!