I wish I could take the time to heal my mind but alas I need to work to maintain my health insurance needed to continue treatment. I began a new job in January, two months after hospitalizing myself because my mental health had declined so much during the pandemic. If I'm being honest, I'm only in it for insurance. My payment is 8 hours/day at a computer. I can't imagine that this is helpful for my recovery or treatment. I'm on the verge of tears because I just want to get better but I feel stuck. I don't even necessarily hate the work I'm doing. It is mentally engaging and the company
is a benefit to my community. I simply wish that I lived in a society that allowed me to take time to heal from a disorder that has affected me to varying degrees since childhood. I feel like I'm being left behind. I really needed to rant to someone about this. Thank you for taking the time to read this.