Ive been struggling with keeping the motivation to work fulltime for years, never truly feeling satisfied or fulfilled in any role. Typical millennial only lasting 2 years max in a role but many only 1 year.
I have a couple more months before i start maternity leave and i cant wait. Ive been looking forward to this for years as i feel its my only escape. (I do also want children, im not only having kids to not work)
I do work in mental health so the burnout is real but overall, i just want to not work. I want to do things i enjoy and focus on my non work life. I am constantly distracted when at work and want to do anything else, like read, hike, see friends, learn, cook new things, plan weekends away and activities.
I dont know if ill ever want to go back to work, at least not fulltime. Its sucks but i dont feel like i can as in society i will likely be seen as lazy especially given how hard my husband works all the time. But hes stressed and unhappy a lot of the time too. Work takes over his every waking thought and i dont think its anyway to live.