Last week I asked about the position's employee handbook for any red flags I needed to watch and some people were quick to call it a factory job. It's an outdoor park position so I figured being outside will be right up my alley, and it's with the state rather than the private sector, so I thought it was made for me. However, today I submitted the needed documents and got my schedule for the first week. I start Thursday and get Friday and Tuesday off. That's when I realized what people meant by factory job, because I wouldn't know what my days off would be until the week I started working. This isn't like a typical 9-5 where I know I have Saturday and Sunday off, no, it's being held prisoner by the firm. In retrospect, another red flag I should have known about is how quickly they hired me. They hired me on the spot after my interview, and I have no idea if they're desperate or just that impressed with me, but I botched the interview so I' pretty sure it's desperation.
On the drive back from the office I began to feel disorientation. I felt my thoughts racing and considering crashing my car. Thankfully I made it home unharmed, but I still felt my heartbeat race. I was frantically looking for graduate schools that are accepting applications so I have a reason to quit. I've been wanting to leave my town for the longest time anyway and that would be my golden ticket. Speaking of quitting, is it something I can just do? They haven't violated my workers rights but I have a feeling that will happen some time during the summer. Maybe it's my fault for saying I can work on the weekends and up to Labor Day. I only applied because I just got my undergraduate degree and was looking for entry level work, ironically in the same field as my first job, and I hated that too. It's like my world is crashing down on me.