I am currently interning at a “fun” company that has relatively good work culture and nice colleagues (in comparison to the nightmares I’ve heard).
Despite this, I fucking dread going to work every single day because (1) I am awkward with shit interpersonal communication skills and I get told time and time again by bosses that I need to speak up and be more confident and it makes me so anxious everyday; and (2) I work in the creative department as project support (I.e. making sure the campaigns get delivered) and it’s making me realize I am just not “creative” enough for this industry.
I am pursuing a Comms degree and I have nothing I’m particularly good at and I don’t know what the fuck I’m going to do once I graduate this summer. If I’m already complaining and struggling now, where I’m in a good place with pretty forgiving superiors, how the fuck am I going to survive as a functioning full time employee, if I can even find a job with my subpar skill set and lack of drive?
I have considered the possibility of changing routes but I am not sure what to do because I have no passion for anything. I’m so demoralized that it’s showing – my supervisor has asked about my lowered energy levels despite it being a new year where we should be more energized and ready as projects come in and I fear it’s affecting my work performance (which in turn affects my grades because this internship is a graduation requirement).