I’m about to fly back to my city after being at my moms for Christmas break. I love being home, my sister and I hang out all day, we love each other and just have fun. When I am across the country I work and sleep, work and sleep. I’m literally sitting here in tears thinking about how much I don’t want to go back to that stupid life, where I am isolated from my loved ones on the east coast, have no energy after the work day, and no job security (this is an apprenticeship but no job is promised and it’s possible I’d never get one that was full time and could pay my bills.
My long distance partner is in the same industry and called me this morning in tears because she hated her job and wanted to quit. I don’t know how I can support two people on a barely there stipend, and what if I never get a job in this field? I just want to go to bed and never wake up again.