I am so unbelievably tired. I told my manager/friend that I am seriously considering quitting but we just can't afford to live on one income. He gave me some decent advice on making sure I was in a good place before making that decision. And it sucks cause I got real lucky as a mom to be able to work at home and raise my one year old. You'd think it'd be the dream but no.
My one year old is needy and clingy not allowing me to work. My numbers are dropping at work because I obviously can't neglect my child to work. My house has fallen apart and I almost never have time to clean. Now my husband is very hard working, he does a custodial job at night. Leaves around 4pm and comes home around am depending on the trains. Still he wakes up around 10am to watch the baby for me so I can try to get some work done. He does some light cleaning too but we are both so drained emotionally and physically.
I know if I quit we will financially struggle but we would be in a much better place. I can't actually remember the last time my husband and I just chilled together and I feel like I am so worn out I don't even have time for my 5 year old. We aren't living at this point, just surviving. There is no enjoyment of this life. I can't even take the time to enjoy the children I so badly wanted. Now it almost feels burdening since they are hurting the work life that I don't even want. Should I take the leap and just quit or keep toughing it out?