I worked thanksgiving under the assumption I was getting holiday pay. It made it worth it to me, instead of spending the day with my little family. They TOLD ME I would get holiday pay. About an hour before my scheduled shift was to end, it was dead. Nobody coming or going. So I asked to go early, they said…”sure that’s fine, orrrr you can stay and get another hour of holiday pay! Think of it like that :)” so I fucking stayed. Only to find out the next morning I’m not qualified for it as I’m in my 90 day period.
I’m frustrated, and honestly a little depressed over it. I understand that’s a dumb thing to get sad over, but I kept motivating myself thanksgiving with the thought of all the money I was desperately in need of and would be getting. Dealing with asshole customers, rude coworkers, getting yelled at, missing time with my kid, all the bullshit was “worth it” cause I would be able to pay some bills and get us something nice like a new game, a pair of shoes.. but nope. Not anymore. No holiday pay, just regular pay and some serious resentment and depression.
It’s not like I had exactly been doing great mentally beforehand but I was keeping my head above water most days. But today I haven’t even gotten out of bed, haven’t showered, just rotting away.