This is just a vent.
My coworkers are horribly toxic human beings.
“Pat” removed my permissions for group communications without a reason and has refused to add me back. Pat was told to add me back multiple times by their boss and their bosses boss. Every time I speak Pat shuts me down. During a workshop session on team dynamics I shared that exclusion from communication makes it difficult to do my job. Pat responded directly to my statements and gaslit me. No one else in a group of 20 was interrupted by Pat or anyone else. It was a time to share our experiences, not argue.I am fucking furious.
I witnessed a major ADA violation at our workplace. It put me in a really negative situation because “Cody” broke the law and caused harm to a person with a disability. I was really upset because I do not want to report people at the workplace. I was trying to decide what to do next and a superior asked what I saw before I could make a report. I made a statement with the facts I witnessed. I liked Cody and really did not feel comfortable with this situation. It felt lose-lose. I also know that following ADA accommodations is mandatory and I had to intervene. Cody has been impossible to work with ever since. They ignore direct questions and refuse to engage with me at all. They won’t show up when we’re both covering the same assignment. The last thing Cody said to me was basically calling me a snitch.
I hate work in general. It’s terrible for my mental health. Not my profession itself, but the bosses and nasty people. My sense of self is not resilient enough for this level of hostility and spite.
My spouse wants me to stand up for myself more. But I don’t have an off switch when I’m angry. I’m hoping to get a promotion in four months so I’m acting like a good boy beta bitch until then.
I fucking hate capitalism and all this bullshit. I dislike the majority of people and have energy of a potato battery. My inner thoughts are deeply toxic. If I can be a decent human being and act kindly towards people I don’t like, so can they.
Thanks for reading why all work is cruelty.