Moving into a new job soon and hopefully its better (but i mean its still a gross industry plus its a job so eh) but thats for later currently we have a happy buzz.
It was my first corporate workplace so I took so many things as a given but the thing that really pushed me to leave was realising that it wasn't just 'toxic' it was 'abusive'.
I'm a childhood abuse survivor and still getting over many things because of it. I spend every day wishing these scars weren't able to impact how I think in the current day.
It was realising that hey, if i start a new position I'll probably have the same reactions, flinching when i do something that would've caused my old boss a tantrum etc etc that got me to leave. the longer i stay there the worse the psychological damage.
Like in the future I will still likely have a panic attack on the train because I'm running 1 minute late with delays just because of how old boss would react, even though new boss is fine with it (like a sane human being).
Its less about hunkering down and riding out a toxic workplace because u are strong enough, its about letting those scars cut deeper and deeper into you.