Our HR company had my PTO rate at part-time even though I’ve been full-time for two years. I had no idea. This is my first full-time job with actual benefits so I had no idea how that stuff works. Luckily, my job fired the HR company and gave me my missed PTO so I have a ton of PTO that I can take.
Though, I feel guilty taking the time off. We’re at a time where there’s a lot of expansion going on and as much as I want/need the time off for my sanity, I know the work is just going to fall on someone else. The program I am in charge of is run by me exclusively so someone else will have to step in. I just feel like it’d be more work for me when I get back anyway.
I feel so burnt out. I just got back to work today after two weeks off and I still want to pull my hair out. I love my job and it’s actually super chill and I am finally comfortable financially, but I can’t help the feeling cynical and fatigued despite all of that. How can I combat this feeling? How can I get motivated again? I can’t afford to not have this job, but I can’t seem to get stuff done.