To say I'm devastated would be an immense understatement. It's one thing to just assume people are talking shit but to actually see has left me completely heartbroken. It wasn't just discussing situations but also saying really gross and hurtful things. All the same I'm also terrified that they will find out I snooped.
Now I don't know if I should try to head off the coming shitstorm on my own terms, keep quiet but actively work to improve or just say fuck them and move on. I wrote a letter to at the very least try to work out what to say if a discussion occurs. I'm also contemplating just emailing it this weekend and seeing what happens. Honestly though from situations with other coworkers it seems like the most likely thing to happen is that none of them are willing to take the initiative to actually resolve the problem so if I just keep my head down and work my ass off I can redeem myself.
TL;DR Instead of addressing workplace issues I now know for a fact that my bosses just talk shit and I'm not sure what to do with this information.