Im having my first performance review with my new manager/boss and I fully expect her to deride me and demean me and tell me I dont deserve a wage that keeps up with rising CPI. It feels hopeless being at the mercy of such a terrible person.
Then I wonder how did we get here? Why am I alone without a union or support going into a one on one meeting every year where I will be gaslit like I always have been with this person and told that I need to give more labor.
Is it school? This feels like school where im at the mercy of a teacher and grades. Is it that the capitalista figured out that playing these mind games can reduce costs but buy more labor? Am i going to be demeaned my whole life unless i climb the ladder and demean someone else?
I just want to be fired not strung along. I know I need healthcare so I cant quit but if I get fired I think I would be more ok with loosing my healthcare and dying of my cancer if/when it returns. I dont like living like this.