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Why should I even try to go find work

I guess this is extremely sentimental and emotional. I literally dont see why I should even try to find something, what is even the point. Without going into too much information and detail I started with a very well paid job with great social benefits, but that job was so boring and mental killing I quit. Then I did a job I loved, but the salary was near minimum wage, even tho I loved the job it was too demanding to do 40 hours a week, so eventually because of money and some other personal problem I was fired then jumped into several different kind of job, where most of them I never keep them for more than a year. Recently I went into a burn out and was sick for nearly 2 months, the job I had killed my brain, my fun because it was extremely boring and long…


I guess this is extremely sentimental and emotional.

I literally dont see why I should even try to find something, what is even the point.

Without going into too much information and detail I started with a very well paid job with great social benefits, but that job was so boring and mental killing I quit.

Then I did a job I loved, but the salary was near minimum wage, even tho I loved the job it was too demanding to do 40 hours a week, so eventually because of money and some other personal problem I was fired

then jumped into several different kind of job, where most of them I never keep them for more than a year.

Recently I went into a burn out and was sick for nearly 2 months, the job I had killed my brain, my fun because it was extremely boring and long and I had to make the decision of quitting, I was always on the verge of crying and panicking just to go work.

Now im here, 40 years old, no real diploma and there no job I could find that will not eventually kill me mentally, because no matter what, there no chance I will ever find job similar level of pay of the well paid one, at best I could get a big maybe 40k a year, because with no diploma and no relevant experience in anything, you are way too restricted.

When I look at job posting site like Indeed, there like 5 main category

  1. the warehouse job, either in a factory, like welders and such or sorting facility like amazon or mail
  2. the customer service slave, retail or some more “advance” with customer support or relation
  3. desk job, like secretary answering phone or compiling data
  4. the “sell this shit” job, like marketing, realtor and many “mlm” ideas
  5. require a skill that you dont have, basically anything there literally no way you could even have a chance to “fight” for, because you have no relevance in the skill they ask.

so really, I dont even know what and how, no matter I will get sick of the job, mainly because its never be paid good enough to fall back again because of not “enough” money

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