So, I have been told all my life “If you don't work, you don't eat,” which is a statement I still agree with today. I believe you have to put in some work to ensure your life and the lives of those closest to you are as good as possible. However, work nowadays, does not feel like I am really helping anyone and certainly not myself.
Watching the new Avatar movie made me feel a twinge of sadness while watching it for some reason and I couldn't figure out why. I wrote it off as me just having “one of those days” my mother would talk about from time to time.
However, after the movie as I was mentally prepping myself for my job the following day, I saw a video that explained my sadness perfectly. Unfortunately, I didn't get the original posters name but they pointed out, the movie made them feel so sad because we looked at a group of people living day to do enjoying each other and nature while providing for themselves and loved ones.
That's what got me. That was what I was feeling. The work I do specifically and a lot of jobs now are so unfulfilling. I grew up working the land, clearing brush, fishing, and hunting (though not usually successful when I was younger) for food. The idea of building a house myself to live in is wonderful. Being given time to raise animals and gardening would be bliss. All of that is work, but it is work that directly benefits you. It teaches you little lessons about life and teaches you to appreciate what you have and the little moments of joy you gain from that. The act of watching your work directly create a tangible reward is, so fulfilling that sometimes I tear up thinking about this city hell-scape I currently live in.
My job is being a glorified secretary dealing with people who don't cooperate, a boss who is the definition of hypocrite and a field that frankly means little to me. But I have to stay right now, I have a wife and need to take care of her and this job is providing me that ability to do so.
I hate this cooperate work world. Always have to sacrifice for a client or the business. Forget your family and spending time using that money for things you want, the business needs you here so PTO? Oh you have to ask to take that off. Oh, you only get 10 days as well because if you worked any less they would have to hire someone else to cover your time off.
10 days to have to myself and even those are like pulling teeth. 10 days to divide up between family, holidays, and my own well being. Family back home hates that I can't see them more and I would like to as well, but being 8 hours away makes travel an issue when I work from 9-6PM everyday of the week leaving the weekends for mental recovery and taking care of all the things that were neglected during the week.
I know this was a bit of a rant and I'm really not sure if this made sense to post here but it seemed that there were many people here who shared the same thoughts and I just wanted to get those thoughts off my chest.