So, I started this job back in January, and I'm currently in a probation period of three months.
Learning on the job, I think I'm doing fine besides the usual blunder of doing things their way for the first time which is expectant and I've taken several notes on where to improve next time.
The main problem for me is my coworkers. One of them, a manager (not my superior) is highly unapproachable (who likes to give me guesswork and doesn't give straight answers) but he's someone that I have to deal always so I have to toughen up every time I go to him.
It's an open seating in the office and I was insisted on sitting with the team but I would rather sit somewhere away because their usual place is secluded and away from many other eye witnesses. That doesn't mean I don't go up to the team and communicate with them. My superior pointed this out to me and not only do I feel derived of my right to my personal space, but most of my coworkers are working from home and I communicate with them via Teams anyway. That kind of defeats the purpose of an open seating plan but I told her that I'll work on it because 'it's the right thing to do' even though I don't meet them like most of the time when I'm in office.
I do want to keep this job for a long time, but I feel like I'm way too incompatible with the rest of my coworkers even though we're cordial at best. I feel like maybe I'm thinking too hard about this and that I give up easily instead of toughening out because every day when I go home, the thoughts of resigning always crosses my mind. Maybe we'll see after my probation officially ends, then I'll think where I land on this.