TW: slight trigger warning of mental illness & self-harm/addiction
Been applying to hundreds of jobs in and out of my industry. Rejections, ghostings, etc all that. It's discouraging and has been hitting me hard lately. Cried a few times and wanted to engage in self destructive behavior. I didn't engage though. (Yay me)
It's nice having all this free time. Been fixating on playing genshin impact but my fixation is slowly dwindling. I'm a reader & crafter but the slow creeping of not doing anything or going anywhere has been creeping into my mind. I'm slowly becoming susceptible to my mental illness.
I have a good combo of education & experience, but nothing is clicking. I hear the whole “so many jobs, not enough people” for my industry.
I'm exhausted and tired.