I can’t fucking afford more eggs. Eggs are a minimum of $4.99 and at most $13.99 for the local organic ones. I get the cheapest eggs. I try to use them to make other recipes more calorically efficient (more calories for less money), and being 4 eggs down literally has fucked up my budget. I can’t make the thing that will feed me for several days unless I sacrifice my “sad” dinners (dinners that I don’t want to be premade because I have eating issues).
Idk what I’m going to do. Well, I do, which is eating buttered potatoes for the 4 days that I don’t have eggs because my brain won’t let me use my other ingredients unless I have fucking eggs.
Having eating disorder issues while being poor is something that doesn’t get talked about enough. Eggs are my safe food, because they USED to be nutritious and cheap, and now they’re just nutritious. I can’t afford my safe food anymore. I can’t access the o my thing keeping me alive for 4 years anymore. I don’t know what to fucking DO. I’ve been making a hard effort to not starve to death because I wanted to, and now I feel like I’m going to starve to death because food is too expensive to afford!!!
I make too much for food stamps but not enough to afford food. I make too much to qualify for state insurance but make too little to afford private insurance. My life is constantly in limbo and it’s fucking exhausting. I want to be well but I simultaneously make too much for assistance and too little to pay for wellness myself. I’m out of options and I’m tired.