I know it sounds like it but I am not depressed or anything. The thing is that I have no motivation for anything because I know that I will die one day. I just don’t see what the purpose of life is.
I can tell myself to work hard the next 30 years and make a lot of money and then maybe retire. But who says I’m gonna be alive in two years? Not because I’m thinking about suicide but we never know when our time comes.
I can’t find a purpose to go chase my dreams when it’s not promised that I will be alive in a few years. I don’t even feel like working tbh.
I live in Europe and luckily my country gives me about 1500 dollars each month. In my country if you have no motivation to work the state will help you by giving you the 1500 dollars. And I’ve been getting these for 3 years now. I pay 700 dollars rent, 300 dollars bills and have 500 dollars for myself.
Am I gonna be rich with 500 dollars? No.
But I will have food on the table, have money for a couple of activities a month and have money for snacks when I game.
I don’t see what I need more money to. I don’t care about living in a big house, having a nice car or anything.
Again I’m not depressed even if it sounds like that. I’m not sad. I just don’t see any purpose of life because I will die one day.