Left my last job for a higher paying one. 1 week in, numerous red flags. Leadership(particularly my manager) is clueless, scatter-brained, hypocritical, rude, micromanager-y, and takes her job FAR too seriously. This manager is new to her role as well. Having been in leadership before myself, I can tell this is more of her personality vs naivety to management. Company laying off people in droves. VERY little tasks to do during the day – which has created a lot of steppy, miniscule procedures that do not matter in said industry…but are vital in said company that likes to remain “old school”. A lot to learn with few opportunities of live experience because it is very slow. 8 hr shift feels like 20 hrs in a 4×6 cell.
Issue. After 2 weeks, I caught covid. Couldn't go in the office for 2 more weeks. When I returned…(mind you I am still new) I am thrown in full speed to my duties. I have dealt with numerous passive aggressive asshole managers in my day. In this industry, I really expect nothing less. What is new to me, however, is my manager becoming irrationally angry and using me as an example for her numerous mistakes. Since being “live” I am definitely the brunt of her aggression, but I saw a lot of troubling behavior when I was still observing. (I.e., something small is done wrong and has a 1 hr meeting pertaining to one employee's mistake – cannot help but address everyone as a whole from the throne even though we all saw and know who she is talking about). I have seen this manager get angry about her plants dying and other employees NOT watering her plants when she never asked them to water the plants. To give just one of many examples, my manager didnt sign me up properly for the credentials of certain programs I need – then proceeded to get angry at me for not being able to access the programs. The bad moods can flip to overly nice and positive and makes the behavior confusing. If this was an occasional thing, fine. But its near daily. Holy gaslighting with this lady.
I never really stopped applying for new jobs because I saw toxic behavior on the 3rd or so day. I have tried to do a lot of mental pep talks to suck it up bc at 90 days I am due a healthy sign-on bonus from this place – but then I am on the hook to work for them for a year or else pay it back. Its gotten bad enough the sign-on bonus isnt worth it anymore. I got an interview for a job in a new industry & all seemed to go well. Pay is the same. Potential job wants me to come in for a paid trial shift to see if we are a good fit for eachother. Therein lies my issue. Standard M-F hours at both places. I have to miss a day of work without for sure knowing I have new job in the bag (my boss already scolded me that I cannot miss more work due to covid time off). Even if this new prospective job doesn't work out, it will be difficult for me to attend interviews due to a short lunch and the location being 10+ min away from the central city.
Basically just seeking advice how to handle this. Obviously only a partipant in this late capitalism hellscape bc I need money to live and pay bills, like all of you. I can quit – never have to see the walls of that prison again…but also dont have a for sure new job. I can call in sick, but then I get to feel the wrath of that come tuesday. I rationalize quitting by thinking… well, I can doordash my ass off in between if I dont get hired at the other place. Live off ramen. Its become pretty bad though and my anxiety is through the roof. The dread I feel waking up and driving to this job has me in a funky mental space.
TLDR; new boss is a bitch. Cannot stand the place and everyday is something with this boss even though I am new and just trying to get trained. Have a good prospect for a new job but nothing solid yet. This job and the hours hinders me from getting another and cant take more time off. Someone tell me bet it all on black lol 🥲