So, I've posted bits of my story here and there, but the TL;DR version is that I spent my whole adult life working jobs that sucked, and that I nearly killed myself working extra hours and taking on loads of stress for my last job. When I got the nerve to leave I gave them 4wks and they thanked me by firing me during my notice period.
Since then, I have no desire (obviously) to do that again for any company.
Now I work a cushy corporate job where I can get the work done that I need to in 20hrs a week or less.
I want to enjoy it, but I've always worked HARD jobs and feel anxious that I'm not doing enough, even though I know I'm finally being paid well for the work that I put in. Even though I don't believe that I should have to do more on a philosophical level.
Anyone else experience this thing I'm calling productivity anxiety? How does one deprogram oneself from the remenants of internalized capitalist wage labour messaging?