I have ADHD. I work at Amazon as a picker. I am in fucking hell. 10 hours of nothing but the sound of robots and conveyors belts, 4 days a week. I am currently on the verge of a panic attack, with 5 more hours to go. This job is the best opportunity I've gotten in a while, but it's so fucking hard not to take VTO or just straight up quit every single fucking day.
I don't know what to do. Nothing I do distracts me enough. I even tried putting an earbud in and it didn't stop me from thinking about the time. I covered up the clock, still couldn't stop thinking about it. Every minute is a year, every hour is a lifetime, I'm so fucking tired and bored and sweaty and I just want to go home but I can't afford to leave this job.
I have an appt tomorrow to talk about ADHD meds with a psych but I don't even know if they'll help or if I'll be able to afford them.
I wish I could just zone out and do my job but I just can't seem to stop counting every second.