Rant ahead:
Why do I keep pushing myself into things I don’t want? From the time I was a kid, I wanted to write about cars and stuff like that. When I was in college the first time I had all these naysayers telling me to do something that could definitely get me a job, and that a communications and media degree would be worthless. And I listened to them. And I went into education, and I am definitely not cut out for it. I’m currently teaching special education in a private day school for kids with behavioral and emotional regulation disorders.
So anyway, I found writing jobs on indeed that I’m going to apply for by sending my résumé highlighting the freelance stuff I was doing for low paying content brokers. If I must labor for wages, I may as well do something I want to do.
I’m also my wife’s day-to-day caregiver for the most part. I do almost all of the housework, most of the cooking, and most of the bills. She’s got disabilities but still works full time and goes to school.
I find i am unable to do the same for myself sometimes, and leave the house for a day of work (voice text said war, which is accurate) where I get cussed out every day and assaulted at least once a week.
I don’t want it anymore and I’m not going to take it.