I’m actively interviewing and looking for new jobs.
But I haven’t found anything good and my current job is seriously testing my will to live. I am so burnt out at the end of the day that at 5pm, I usually go lay in bed with my eyes closed because I can’t bear to do anything else.
The stress from this job is manifesting physically and I’m losing my mind. I am severely underpaid and can’t afford to leave. I am sick all the time. I’ve gained some weight. I think my manager is on drugs tbh because she can’t remember anything ever. I’m doing majority of her work for her.
I’ve tried asking for a raise / promotion, they said sure! Led me on for THREE MONTHS trying to make this new contact then said just kidding! We’re giving you nothing. And got mad at ME for being angry.
I have no motivation to do things I used to like; hang out with friends, exercise regularly, go for walks, etc. I have 0 energy.
I physically cannot relax and I worry I’m going to start having to turn to alcohol / substances just to be able to calm down. I seriously worry there’s no other way.
Any tips for surviving thjs until I get something better? I’ve been trying to get a new job for 6 months now and I’m absolutely losing it. Taking a different job at the same pay would likely mean having to take a lower title. I’m in therapy but idk how to keep going on like this.