I have done EVERYTHING. I've gone to therapy, I've taken courses on job applications, had my resume reviewed by professionals, have severely lowered my standards for application, have started pretending to take LinkedIn seriously, basically all the stuff people say you should do when job hunting, but nobody wants me. I REALLY want to work, my wage and time demands are virtually nonexistent because I'm desperate, and frankly I am both motivated and skilled enough to deserve a chance. I got my certificate in a very competitive field (journalism), and knowing that kept me from taking the endless stream of rejection personally for months. But no longer. I notice myself thinking that people don't WANT to give me a chance, that it's because I'm too queer for mainstream employers but too cis white male for employers with an active diversity policy, that my former employers, teachers and peers who praised me in the past were actually just lying to me, etc. I don't WANT to think these things; rationally I know they're all ridiculous thoughts. But idk man, how the hell am I supposed to stay positive when life is just an endless spiral of unfulfilled dreams and auto-reply rejection emails? I have to keep going in order to one day live the life I want, but HOW?? How do I keep up? Where will I find the energy to keep going? And how do I keep track of what things are actually going on and what things are just happening according to my anxious mind? How can I manage to keep looking at the bigger picture? Any tips are welcome…