I had my second day today training at Starbucks and fuck it’s stressful. I’ve had a non corporate job before working on a ranch and absolutely loved it. Hard work, but so rewarding. But honestly I’m already considering quitting.
My manager is a corporate robot who’s idea of empathy is spewing out company moto’s of leaving emotional problems at the door. He’s so inflexible and won’t listen to me when I tell him what I need in order to excel.
Today I started crying whilst talking with him because my wrist was partially dislocated due to strain from the previous day (I have a ligament disability that can cause subluxation) and I was asking for a break so I could shift it back into place. He ended up going on a tangent about mistakes I’ve made so far. He expects me to be a robot like him, and I can’t even pretend I am because I’m autistic and can’t mask.
I would’ve never accepted the job if I wasn’t desperate. I need medical treatment that my insurance doesn’t cover and I don’t want to go into debt.
I keep telling myself to stick with it and go for as long as I can, take it one day at a time whilst searching for a different job, but fuck I hate this. I’m trying so hard to be reliable to my coworkers and to do everything perfect, but I’m human and I keep fucking up.
Corporations and boot lickers alike can fuck off.