I have a pretty good job that's not too stressful and has good pay,, but lately I can't fucking stand it. It takes me forever to get started in the morning, I cannot focus on my tasks, and by 3pm I'm looking at the clock and agonising how slow it is. Kicker is I cannot show that I'm ineffective, we just had a round of layoffs that I dodged, so I'm pretending to be engaged and busy and I talk all the time about ideas for projects I will drag my feet on. Thankfully I don't have that much scrutiny, so no one's noticed. I also have a major surgery to remove a tumour in a month's time, so I cannot afford to slip. This 40 hour grind is killing me, people just weren't meant to live like this. At least I'll have time off after the surgery. If I don't die that is. Idk, I guess this is just a rant. I'm tired, I'm burnt out, I'm sick and I need a holiday.