Havnt worked much in my life. I try and fail.
I always associate work with great depression. A few weeks inn of any job the wave of depression hits and im unable to keep going.
Recently diagnosed as having bipolar and signed up for benefits. Having the little extra money is good but i cannot secure a future of joy with this little money.
I honestly want to be earning money but the stress that comes from selling 1/3 of my life does not motivate me to keep going.
I get called a leach for surviving off others tax. This isnt the situation I dreamed of and it hurts. I want something that is fullfilling. Having to wake up at 5am coming home late for money that isnt much does not drive me.
I have a sales rep interview on monday and although the idea of making money properly is great, the early mornings and late evenings will crush me like it always does so i probably wont make the interview.
If I take up the job i lose my benefits, medical care and free time. How am i suppose to be motivated?.
Work literally drives me insane and i cannot pretend like im ok just as everybody else does. I dont know what to do man. Im depressed over this. I spend 23 hours a day inn bed. This work life cares more about productivity than it does well being. Sorry this is my mood dont let it drag you down. For those who work. Keep at it. For those who dont. Keep looking for the answers!