I feel so conflicted right now. I work as an unarmed security guard for a local agency, and as of lately my main site assigned to me was paying me $23/hr and I was working there 5 days a week. I wasn’t making the absolute best money working that site but It good enough for me to survive. I live in the Seattle area, so I’m sure my fellow locals know how expensive it is to live here.
Anyways, I get a text from my supervisor today saying that the contract for that specific site ends TOMORROW, and that all my shifts have been removed the schedule. They then offered me the least desirable site, for the lowest pay available from the company ($17/hr)…for two days. I can’t live off that, I’m barley surviving as is.
What the fuck man? This really throws a wrench at my schedule/ pulls the rug out from underneath my feet! I thought to myself, “ I need to get the fuck home and start filling out applications, fuck this.”
I took off my badge, put it on my desk and walked out. Abandoned my site straight up. As of right now, a whole day later, no one has said anything to me, but I still feel horrible about it. It goes against everything I stand for in my ethics but I have people who depend on me I can’t live off those hours. I have my feet in the door with an armed company that pays more ($27/hr) and I start next week, and I’m really excited for it. However, I feel a sense of existential guilt about yesterday.
Am I the asshole? What would you guys have done?