Author: Olivia

​ ​ I suffer from severe depression that I inherited from my mom's side of the family. The weird thing about me is that none of the medication I tried worked well on me. As a result, I can't hold down a job. Some people think I'm coddled, but they don't realize how debilitating depression is. I have no energy or motivation to be productive and that is a symptom of the illness. My uncle was just like me. He had schizophrenia and depression and he never held stable employment. I don't think he had a single job that lasted even a year. My mom took care of him until he passed. Now she's taking care of me. Not everybody considers depression to be a disability but I consider it to be.

That’s it. Work in ABA as a behavior tech and my hours suck. Plus I realize I kinda hate working directly with kids kids. A lot. Found a job working in a hospital with more stable hours and better benefits as a medical assistant. Gave my current employers literally as much notice as possible so I can help train my replacement and one of the case managers and HR are big mad I didn’t give “more notice.” They are trying to withhold my PTO payout as a result of the inconvenience. I’ve had such as struggle with working the last year that I’m just over it. Letting it happen. Idgaf anymore. This was my 5th job in 12 months because I couldn’t find one in my preferred field. Ah well. I probably won’t like the next one much but at least I’ll have stable hours and won’t have to go…

Lord of the Flies vibes.