Author: Olivia

So I've been talking to more American people about their work environment and I was rather shocked by how they don't get many paid vacation days or even have ''sick days'' (that one really made me laugh sorry). Like, oh you can't be sick anymore, it's not allowed. (lol). Anyhow, I want to explain what it is like to work in the Netherlands in some companies I worked as an engineer with a few sums. ''Sick days'' don't exist, you're sick and get paid. In some contracts you get paid less, but this is almost never the case when you're working full time for a company. You can just leave whenever you want during the day as long as you finish your 40 hours. Want to pick up your kids from school? No worries. You don't even need to proof you've worked this much. It's a faith based system (and…

I'm trying to wrap my head around the way you guys operate. Is the idea that no one should work? Or is this just a place to voice complaints about having to work? Because I can understand not liking having to work, don't know anybody who wouldn't. But I can't see a society where no one has to work being a possibility.

I just have to write some steam off. I honestly feel like she treats me like a slave and not a receptionist. She’s also unknowingly condescending, I believe because of my age and shyness. It’s frustrating. There is a special incident that makes me wanna write this. But I’m also thinking in general, this woman is not fit to be a boss (I’m a woman too, no misogyny here). For example, she took a phone call regarding the bartender having a drink on the job right beside me, even giggling and making jokes about it. She seems to like me, but I felt like that was a privacy violation towards my colleague and it made me uncomfortable. My boss is a 35-ish woman and I’m only 20, but I seem more to understand how to behave like an adult… Anyway, last time I worked there came a very extravagant, odd…

They just had more opportunity. Nothing special about them.

I've been trying to use mental gymnastics but it's just not working. I don't want a job. I never have and I've never had one. I've tried to look for work anyway, but every time I try, panic attack. I try again, massive depressive episode. I can't force myself to do it. How the fuck do people do this? I tried going for disability since I'm eligible… but they have compulsory volunteering in my country. Immideatly, I felt the weight of the world on me and I couldn't breathe. And they have fortnightly reporting (even for 0$) I'm kind of stressed out since I don't think I can meet the requirements for that. In school I just absolutely dissociated whenever assignments were due and got 0% every semester until they kicked me out. So I would lose the disability payments if I tried anyway. The stress of assignments in school…