I've worked as a teacher in different states in the US. I noticed patterns of mistreatment by administration. During the beginning of the pandemic, I worked for a nonprofit that blatantly mistreated students and essentially created a plan to fill empty classrooms with students, without resources so that they could meet quotas and maintain funding. I quit abruptly because I began drinking daily before work (tw: substance abuse) and took a job in another field that i have no interest in, but pays well. I'm a year in and I'm starting to have a fair amount of psychosomatic pain + an existential crisis about the fact that my current job has no meaning. At the same time, I'm scared to go back to teaching because I do not want to be mistreated at work or be responsible for any system where students are treated as little tokens for government money.
Tl;dr – does anyone else have a fear of working in their “passion”? How did you approach the situation? Respectful advice welcomed!