So I was recently diagnosed with Chronic Respiratory Failure with Hypoxia due to a severe case of pneumonia brought on by COVID, Fibromyalgia and have to use supplemental oxygen as well as am in pain all the time and constantly fatigued. I had to start a GoFundMe because my family is struggling financially to take care of me and so far I have hardly made any money. I was messaged by someone saying that, “I have fibromyalgia and I can work. So can you”. I said, “Do you have to use oxygen as well? Because clearly my GoFundMe states I have chronic respiratory failure with hypoxia and it's so bad I almost died a month ago when my lungs decided to just fail on me and I ended up almost dead because my lung were full of fluid. But Ok.
To make matters even worse, my own mother makes comments all the time about how I should just try to find a job working from home. I told her that with the combination of low oxygen and fibromyalgia induced fatigue, I fall asleep at random times all throughout the day. I will be completely lucid and suddenly wake up hours later. it's awful. Now here is where shit is really ridiculous. My mom actually said to me, “If you can play video games, then you can work”. I play World of Warcraft. I click on stuff and press random buttons. That is not the same as having deadlines, having to press the right buttons at all times and if I don't, I could cost a company thousands of dollars, learning new programs when I have the memory and focus of a ground squirrel due to fibro fog and low oxygen. She then said, “Anyone in my generation is going to see it that way.” I asked my dad if he believes that, and he said “yes.” So did my step-dad.
How f**king insane do you have to be to think playing video games is the equivalent to being able to work? Especially when you're not feeling well and on a bunch of meds? Just paying for meds, doctors' appointments, hospital bills, co-pays, gas to get to these places, specialist extra costs etc. and it all being so expensive that I need to make a GoFundMe to begin with is fucking sad. It's even more sad that i've received almost no help from extended family and even friends who I've let borrow money and haven't bugged them to pay me back. It's sad to me that people have to beg for money from strangers and friends/family/acquaintances to avoid dying. It's dystopian shit. I am treat like just because I cannot work, I deserve to be resented.
Also I don't think I can post my GoFundMe here because it's against the rules I'm sure, but if anyone would really want to help out a fellow human being who could use you're help, It's in my posts history. Thanks for letting me rant~