I'm so done. I go to work and bust ass every day, even though my personal life is a sh*tshow. I called out for a few days about a month ago, just because I had a lot going on and I needed some time to think and just…. decompress. I needed to give myself a break. Well, apparently my manager seemed to think I called out because I am a drug addict, which I am definitely not. I smoke weed (but honestly who doesn't) and that's the ONLY “drug” I have ever done. I take antidepressants so there aren't many safe options for me drug-wise, lol.
Last week I was in the break room making myself a coffee at the Keurig, and since everyone else was out on the floor working (I work in a small makeup factory) he came in, made himself comfortable, and took the opportunity to ask me if I have a substance problem and if that's the reason why I missed three days of work. I am 21F, I grew up in a very sheltered household and I barely even drink, so I was taken aback. I've never been asked that in my entire life. I obviously said no, but I don't think he believed me. I get why he might think something's going on with me, I'm exhausted all the time (I struggle with nearly-debilitating anxiety and depression, as well as bipolar disorder), I have huge dark circles under my eyes just because that's just how my face looks. I also have my good days and my bad days, some days I can run around and take care of tasks quickly and am super talkative, and other days I kinda keep to myself and might work a little slower than usual, and take my time with tasks. But that's normal, right? It just really sucks to have to go into work every day and wonder if I look like I'm on drugs just because I'm not wearing makeup over my under eye circles or because I'm yawning from not sleeping enough the night before. How do you prove you're not doing drugs when you've never done hard drugs in your life?