I already know I am meant to find my way into a role that gives me freedom for problem solving and flexibility vs a very micromanahed corporate environment but I also know you have to follow before you lead.
Lately since I've never followed through in committing to jobs long enough to move up when they want me to. I self sabotage. I know this about myself and I am trying to change it and it's like I've been through an unnatural amount jobs in the past few years and have onion layers I am peeling off every time I, ultimately stay at a job too long and lose it because I stay in a toxic situation too long or I get fires for “you're not going to be happy here” “you're not a team player” “it's not your work ethic….” But no one wants to tell me what it is.
So today I had a “final” meeting with all three managers at.. frankly a very underpaid fast food establishment (they are not all under paid now so really I've learned if you're underpaid and the people are generally toxic there's a reason for it all) where most people insult and bitch about literally every single customer that comes in. I don't believe I've worked in a more miserable place in my life. And I have had shittier jobs than this establishment.
I have had coworkers deliberately mess with me.. be at the fry station at the same time and step on my feet and not move. Not pick at a situation and a call I made to not prematurely throw away food and cook it to save it more time… Because I'm not a shift.leader but I'm new, worked enough food service and know what I'm doing… I have worked at places where your opinion on food quality matters.. but yet… When I wanted a second opinion from my DM about our lemonade as it does go sour often before the date expires.. I was told I was wrong for questioning it. I am told to remind people to do things the right way and I do and I get feed back that I am acting like their supervisor when I'm not so I am not comfortable.
I've never worked at a place where my judgement call about serving quality food or making thingsote efficient like taking less steps and setting up my station in such a way so opposed at. For 10.50 an hour.
Today I sat in an hour long meeting that involved me being told I interrupt my managers and don't listen to them but the one manager that has ever expressed this issue with me was constantly interrupting me and has a history of hypocrisy.
I've worked for so many companies that straight up don't care.. I've worked for so many companies where the people don't…but I've worked for such a low wage where a shift.leader can get in your face and be verbally abusive (which is something I didn't include in this cIse TL;DR but didn't feel like even typing it) and get in your face and personally attack you for being standoffish because you eant to go to work, not complain, do a good job, and go home. Even though I am against the low wage I have been getting, I need this job more than want it but I also want to do a good job. I don't want to fuck around on my phone as I was raised in a working area where if you even took your phone out or had it on you that was a write up. I was raised with a good work ethic. And I enjoy working with customers.
Ugh just.. thanks for reading/”listening” I'm just so frustrated at trying to find work in a totally different cultural realm of the country and post COVID in a region where people truly DGAF