I work in an office of mostly women.
They love coming in Monday mornings and chatting about their weekends, laughing and joking about what they did in between sips of coffee. They are overall unphased about being here, great.
Then there’s me – struggling to get the strength to pull myself together for yet another day of mundane paper pushing. Hating the feeling of this ball and chain between 9-5pm.
I walk in say a quick good morning and rush to my desk. I just need to be alone and compose myself for another day of imprisonment. I just don’t have the energy to join in the morning rituals. I really don’t have the energy or desire to chit chat much at all throughout the day either. I find socializing in a professional setting too be really draining bc I have to watch so much of what I say/feel. I have to tame my facial expressions.
I’m sure I look like an anti-social stuck up jerk and that makes me feel even worse. I just want to come in, do my work, and go home without anyone feeling any type of way that I’m not joining in at the water cooler gathering.
Can anyone relate?