Hello, r/antiwork!! My retail job is finally catching up on me and what better support can I get than coming to this sub?
I think we all get that one feeling at work. That urge. That, “I have free will and I can just leave right now” urge. My job causes me insane amounts of anxiety and stress. I work self checkout and am frequently by myself on the floor because we are either short staffed or someone is on break. On weekends, supervisors disappear and lines get long and i panic. Today is no exception. Especially for superbowl weekend.
Now, I have been at this store for three years. For the most part, they like me I just have bad attendance and there was one time I had a customer complaint go to corporate. That’s besides the point. The point is, though that I got too comfortable with this job that I hate (because of customers).
Anyways, Today it was extremely busy on self checkout. Co worker took her lunch. I got swamped and instantly felt panic. I dont know what drove me to do it this time but I faked an emergency and walked out. I told my co worker I had an emergency. Later I got a call from my manager who wasn’t working and I just said I left in urgency and I’m sorry. She just said she wish I told a manager. I should have done that if i wanted to leave early, but In the spur of the moment that’s not what i did.
Tomorrow, I leave for vacation . I’m relieved I left the hellhole for today, and I’ll be on my paid-week vacation, but dreading the trouble i will probably be in when I get back.
I guess I just came on here not only to vent but just to hear other people’s support and opinions. I kind of screwed myself because if I get fired, This job is really my only reference. But retail is so bad for my mental health….