The title says it all. I usually don't rant b/c I know I have it better than 99% of people on earth. But I'm also tired of life stress and it just feels like life keeps getting harder. Out of all these stresses work is the most vexing for me. I am a software engineer and all the news of layoffs stresses me out. I don't have any specific reason to be worried but sometimes it feels more like luck and I don't know when mine will run out. Throughout my life with all the hardship like horrible workplaces, divorce, living paycheck to paycheck to the recent challenges like lockdowns, covid, forced vax, finding another job, etc I somehow managed to do better than before. Now I'm dealing with uncertainty about work and thinking about what I can do next and not becoming obsolete. Sometimes I worry the best days are behind me. My 30's decade I was stably employed and I made a decent but not great wage. But I didn't care and all I did was party after working my 9-5. While I don't want to do that again I miss the care free and stress free life I led.
I know work is 100% artificial in our society. We've long past the point where it was needed for survival. Now all the efficiencies just serve to enrich the top even more. I'm disgusted by the recruitment efforts of companies trying to make people feel good about working as a way to get around not paying them what they're worth. All the inflation problems, lack of healthcare housing, etc could easily be solved! I'm def not a socialist type and recognize that there needs to be some motivation in life so people don't sit around and do nothing to contribute to society. But we've well passed the point of sanity now. I don't even know how this keeps being sustainable! I could easily see revolt happening at some point in the future. Though with all the political partisanship which is really just about pitting the people against each other so the uniparty can continue the screw us I wonder if that can even happen.
Sometimes I fantasize about just learning how to life in the wilderness and then heading out into the woods to live out the rest of my days. Maybe in a decade I'll succumb to the elements or disease or something. To hell with “saving for retirement” or “leaving a legacy”.
I don't know what the point of this post is other than venting. I want to find a solution but it seems there isn't any. Maybe there is an easy-ish type job I could keep doing into old age? Idk.