I’m in the process of learning how to video edit. It’s the first thing I’ve actually found that I want to make into a career.
However I still have a day job that I feel like is holding me back. I’m so drained from working all day I hardly get to work on my editing skills. My mental health is just continuously deteriorating from having to do this thing I don’t want to do anymore. Suicidal ideation has got to the point where I can’t stop thinking about it.
I live with my dad so I am financially supported whether or not I work so working at this job just feels pointless. He covers all my expenses including health insurance and phone costs.
People have told me it’s better to work while learning but idk if I can do it.
What do I do? I want to quit. I feel like if I was able to put all my energy into building my new career it would serve me a lot better.