I'm sorry if my post comes off as rambling or if I'm venting frustration. I feel as if my problems, in comparison to the genuinely greater issues people are currently facing.
I currently am in university and trying to find a co-op job, I've been trying to do so since the end of January but have had no luck. Several months later and I still don't have a job and I never expected the severe mental distress that came with it. I'm spoiled because I'm in a position where I don't need to work, but the pressure I'm getting from family and friends to find a job is anxiety-inducing. It reached a peak during the exam period, where I essentially entered long depressive episodes and continually had suicidal thoughts. While I was able to push back the worst of my mental health problems, the combination of anxiety and depression are still rather ever-present. While some friends have tried helping with my resume and interview practice, the majority have seemed unsympathetic to condescending. Most either tell me I haven't been trying hard enough and that because of my laziness I waited too long. For that reason, I've kind of cut most of my contacts off, except for a few who I know aren't going to chastise me for my position.
What makes things worst, at least for me, is knowing there are so many less fortunate people in far worst positions. I have been trying to find one to the best of my ability, but that sort of answer doesn't seem to be good enough. Am I being selfish wanting to find a good job for co-op, knowing full well countless people are either struggling to find jobs to survive or suffering from far worse conditions in their workplaces?
r/antiwork has genuinely been a great place for me to understand the workplace and what needs changing, but I'm afraid that I can't even get into any workplace to do so. I feel like I'm unemployable, that I don't have the skills or talent to get hired, with no matter what I do not being enough to maintain pace with friends or former colleagues. Am I genuinely selfish for wanting to find a job and what should I do in my position?