Today is my first day being back in the office for… no reason. And it's almost unbearable. I'm autistic and have really bad sensory processing issues. Being at home over the holidays was so good for me, it felt like my nervous system actually calmed down. And now today I feel like I've been electrocuted or something. The office is unbearable, everyone talks all day, one particular person types SO LOUD, the lights are too bright and the heating is too high. Just being near people hurts. But I have to be here, just 'cause.
We have a hybrid model so some days are at home some are here, which proves I can easily do my job at home. I could not make my issues any clearer to management. I absolutely BEGGED them to give me even one more day a week at home. They thought about it for several months, then said no, I begged again, so they said I could have one extra day every other week. Which is the most bullshit thing ever. And to make up for me daring to ask for this, now on my WFH days I have to 'check in' with my manager throughout the day because she 'has trust issues'. I'm the only one who has to do this. I have a disability, I am not just getting off work. I can't tell you how insulting it is and how much it's ruined my remaining morale. And it's still not enough. I need to be fully remote because I simply can't cope with working in an office. But if there was this much resistance to me asking for one measley day a week I don't stand a chance.
I just needed to get this out and see if other people agree it's unfair. I'll probably delete this in a few days because I'm paranoid.