Hello everyone.
I'm 26 years old and have worked for a lot of different companies in my industry, gaining a lot of good experience.
Each position, I was an excellent employee. Coming in early, leaving late. Not only fulfilling expectations, but exceeding them. Making a lot of money for the companies and setting them up for success. Getting along with coworkers and trying my best to fit into the company culture.
The past 3-4 years, I feel like I've been dicked down as far as gratitude/references.
Company A: Left on extremely good terms after setting 4 huge records, record profit, worked 70 hour weeks. Wanted to come back after working another job for a year. They had a position that was identical to the one I had with them…. They ghosted me. They had literally said “if you ever want to come back, do it” yet when I tried, no Bueno. HR blew dmole up my ass.
Company B: Horrible boss. Berated me, overall treatment pretty poor. Regardless, was setting records for them, got along with coworkers, and literally made them like 1 million in profit. They let me go along with 4 other people for “restructuring” but kept my other colleagues that were more buddy buddy with management and didn't produce as much. They said it was because I was remote snd they wanted everyone in one place… my colleagues that got to stay were all remote. And I actually worked in a satellite office. Another colleague in that office got to stay on too. So completely political. I was crushing it.
Now I'm in a new role and I can't take anything seriously. I just fuck around. That's because the last few experiences (had a couple more than jobs a & b) really took the wind out of my sails.
I started this job enthusiastic, but my managers made a mistake and now are being passive aggressive with me. I've been asked to CC them on every email like I'm a kid. Even though the mistake was clearly on them. They are now trying to slowly push it like it was my idea. I have emails to back this too, it was them.
How do I get my motivation back to do good and not just do bare minimum. Because at this point, fuck these companies. I am a good person, who is smart, hardworking, adds value, results, and for the most part gets along with my coworkers and have been told I'm good to work with.