This might be a longer post, and just kind of an emotional one. I just need to get it all out.
On Friday, I was terminated for multiple reasons- I was told that there's no money to keep me at my company, that my performance hasn't improved, and that I had to leave that day. I expressed how I felt like a failure, and my boss and supervisor didn't even blink.
Now, after processing it all, I am starting to feel useless. I am still getting Outlook notifications for meetings, and I was at a local event yesterday and a coworker and I made eye contact. She didn't acknowledge me. I'm starting to think, what if I messed up the only chance I had?
I'm 23. I know there are smarter and much more qualified candidates than me out there, but I can't help but wish I was somebody else. These past few months I have been off my medication (I was falling asleep during the day after I got home from work. Most days I would move from my sofa to my bed.) and struggling with the loss of a close friend. I did not tell my supervisor this, because the last time I opened up to her she said to me “What do you want me to do about it?” I was taken aback- I just wanted her to be understanding but clearly she wasn't having it.
In some ways, I feel happy- the workplace environment was unhealthy and I would work outside of my job hours to prove myself. But now, I don't have much going for me. Admittedly, I feel like a loser.
Does anyone have advice on how to balance work and life? I feel like one side is always much heavier.