So the deed has finally been done. I tendered my resignation today and it’s been a long time coming.
I was lucky enough to have another senior manager who understands my struggles, working as our acting manager today – lucky because I have been on leave as a juror for the past few months and didn’t really know what I might be walking back into. She is also one of the few managers who knows a lot of the backstory even though she runs a different department.
She said she was proud of me for standing up for myself and my own mental health, and that even though I will be sorely missed by not only her but many other staff members including my team (who I will be telling tomorrow as they were pretty much all on leave today.) that she is proud of me for deciding to no longer put up with the copious amounts of bullying, gaslighting, and full on bullshit that go on.
I still have a few ticking time bombs to set up before I go, but aside from that I feel so relieved that the deed has finally been done. Now I just have to summon up the courage to tell my team that I’m leaving them, as much as I don’t want to, but with the ever deteriorating management of this place, I know on the whole they’ll understand.