I'm absolutely NOT trying to detract from veterans etc, or create some sort of suffering olympics. It's just my feelings/perspective.
My last job treated me so poorly, I can barely bring myself to talk about it. In summary, they bullied, blamed, lied a LOT, kept me there under false pretences, and then fired me without cause literally a day before I reached 2 years (UK people will know why that's horrible).
I took a break, and now I'm about to start a new job. I'm shaking in bed because I think my fears it'll be like the old job are coming back up. I can't control my reaction and I know I sound whiney. I'm not sure what I'm seeking here. Understanding? Reassurance? Strength? I feel like I'm going to lose all control of my life again.