I used to be really good at pushing myself but I just cant anymore.im just sitting here staring at my screen waiting for my manager to start shit. Being unemployed would suck cause I need health insurance for my cancer and other stuff but honestly working makes me want to die. Still live with my parents so ill survive. Hate living with my parents though. The job market is hell I would rather die than look for another job.
Im just fucking sick of working and being unemployed. Management had been progressively getting worse since I joined. Initially I had a great manager but he quit and then his replacement quit until I have the aweful manager I have now (upper management loves her though). But the problem isnt management in this specific location, its capitalism in general you will always be driven harder and harder till you have nothing you have left to give wages will stagnate since workers have no power and I just dont want to participate anymore.
Every day for 8 hours I wish for my brain cancer to come back and kill me so I dont have to work or be unemployed.