I tried to keep it short 🤣 this place sets me off.
I've been working in an entirely new territory for the last few months. I wanted something different and I got it. The job itself isn't so bad, it's mostly solitary, VERY active, and it goes by pretty quickly and I get a free meal every day! Cool, right?
Eh. Maybe. During my training period I watched in horror as my superiors committed hygienic atrocities against humankind, unbeknownst to the clientele we are preparing for. I basically trained myself by NOT doing what I watched some of these employees do.
What I didn't know during my training period (other than most of the required things I found out about later) is how competitive it is within the department just to get the supplies we all need to reach the same goal. If you're not already well-established in the hoarding hierarchy, you're left to wander to and from every end of the building on every floor to get what you need just to get started. And we get done whenever tf we finish.
I can't build a routine in this place because I'm constantly needing to rebuild around something else because as soon as I start to get a good foundation going to really excel, something will happen to kick it out from under me and I have to start over again from scratch.
This hoarding thing has apparently BEEN a thing for a long time. And any efforts to encourage change are futile. I've learned this recently and there's nothing I can do but wait until I have less shit I need to get done so I can just apply elsewhere. I'm trapped and I hate it.
ALSO
You're not considered full time if you can't work 5 or more days every 7 days. So you could be working 4 days a week and clock in 60 hours, but you're not full time. You don't get benefits you just get paid. Overtime and incentive, sure. Fine.
I just had my 90 day review and my manager said basically that I'm VERY good at my job, and have shown “improvements” in certain areas (finding supplies sooner rather than later determines how quickly I can do my job, and they're looking for speed not competency, apparently)…
But in the “needs improvement” section she said that I “have difficulties adapting to challenges”.
I have “difficulties” “adapting” “to challenges”.
I've been VERY transparent about how challenged the entire place is ever since I've been on my own because I just want to do my job. And it feels like they're doing everything they can to prevent me from doing as well as I know I can.
And they're fucking blaming me for it? LOL