This is also an update, I made the post about moving from one toxic job to another. Also this will get a little long so I’m sorry. I’ll try to condense as much of what happened.
But yeah, I get it now, they’re all toxic. Anyways I /was/ planning on telling someone to get the manager of this job if I could transfer/apply within, me and the manager were already off the wrong foot, mostly because she has a HUGE favoritism problem. She’s also very two-faced and seemed very nice at first and still towards the end she tried to act as nice as can be. I hate how blind-sided I was by her “kindness.” Basically for the past 2 months it came to my realization that not only was I not going to get the agreed amount of hours I was going to get on the shift I was hired for (3rd shift), I should’ve made my plans, put in my notice, ANYTHING, before this got any worse. After discovering the 2 people she tasked to train me on day shift were her best friends and they were friends with a toxic supervisor from the previous facility I worked at, that should’ve been my signal to get out. I wish I did I wish I did anything vs what actually happened to me. She kept telling me on multiple occasions “oh yeah you should be fine you’re PRN (per diem) just let me know your off days and I’ll put you on the schedule.”
Honestly, she was doing that. Then, at the end, I had to have a Monday off, I texted her on 2 occasions over the weekend about that since she re-created a new schedule, blind-sided me, told me that I was never going to sent to my hired shift until my trainers (her friends) stopped giving her “negative feedback” (lies). (Other people in the department that aren’t her favorite expressed to me that my training was going fine, honestly I shouldn’t even have been training as long as I was on days with the experience I had.) Anyways that’s when it solidified I was going to be on days indefinitely. Honestly though, I don’t think she ever liked me in the first place.
Over that weekend, she did reply to me, Sunday night, saying “ok great thank you! Got it. Have a great weekend!” So here I am thinking come Monday, oh right I should be fine. Here she comes calling me Monday, telling me that Monday counts as point, and she’s letting me go for points. So this post is a lie, she has all the reason to let me go. She’s in a position of power and she talked to one of her FRIENDS from HR. To preface this, I have worked with this healthcare system before, I actually think it’s great, this department is just a nightmare I wish I never applied to.
I condensed a lot of what happened in the past 2 months, so honestly it probably sounds like it’s still my fault and I’m sorry, I’m not the best writer and I’m really not in the best state of mind. I thought my training was going fine, I thought she had my back as she expressed to me many times over the past 2 months. Now I’m out of a job at a healthcare system i actually like and I’m scared I’m not even gonna be able to come back. It’s a huge system with multiple facilities in my town and I just have been breaking down constantly because that’s a lot of jobs I can’t apply to. When she gave me the phone call she tried her fake nice sounding voice on the phone, as I’m sobbing to her asking her what the hell went wrong, she’s putting me out on the streets. She could honestly care less. She told me she’d put me down as rehireable. I’m scared she may be lying to me like she has in the past. I’ve been constantly calling the recruiters cause honestly they’re really good and they’ve helped me out, but I’m basically a sitting duck cause they’re waiting to see what I’ll be processed in the system as. They told me if I’m not put down as rehireable I’m going to have to have a meeting with HR, and I’m honestly going to have a fucking panic attack because this is all so fucking exhausting. My only saving grace is that I have a LOT of references from this healthcare system (because I worked in it in the past) and another one I’ve worked in. Those co-workers i still have decent contact with them and they could vouch for me, my work ethic and every positive experience I’ve had at this system except for this one. Whether or not HR is going to believe me or take their word for it I don’t know I feel like killing myself honestly cause I know HR is not our friends. This town does not have a lot of good jobs and this system is really big, so I really have not been in the best headspace lately if I’m not processed as rehireable. They told me if I’m down as rehireable I’ll be able to apply again easy. Hopefully she didn’t lie to me…… I’ve been looking for other jobs but honestly it’s just looking very bleak for me. Especially as someone with the qualifications for my job, to give it up because of this bullshit is just making me wanna off myself. The time is ticking, I don’t know if I’ll make my rent and bills this month. I don’t wanna give up going to school because I’ve been wanting to do BETTER for myself. Now I need to focus on job hunting and getting food on the table and put everything on hold because of this and I’m just really on the edge. Like I feel absolutely fucked.